20200104--the little girl appears

This afternoon

I was watching a movie

Not a happy or exciting one

It was slow in plot

I was in a hurry

I could see myself in the leading role

Not communicative

Unwilling to be social

Talk in an abnormal way

Staying in my own world

Being sad and scared

When the ex-wife approached him

She wanna apologize for what she said to him

After the house was accidentally on fire

And the fire took the kids away

It was hard for him to talk it out

Because deep down

He couldn't forgive himself

That's when the tears started to stream down

I could see a little girl curling up at the corner

Burying her head in the legs

At that moment

I could feel relieved

And rarely peaceful

Maybe because the little girl inside was seen

It brought my tears down again

That when his nephew saw the photos of his kids

On the nightstand

It was still haunting in his mind

So he was not be able to raise him

Until 18

It's not easy to let go of the sadness

even though you tried and tried

Like he said to his nephew

I can't beat it.

I want to take care of the little girl

From now on

Even though she is not aroung often

The big girl is always there to tell her

It is so stupid to be sad and scared and anxious

Just like everybody else

So the little girl just ran away